Behind the smile and the brushing it off,
A blot on the heart that won’t shake off.
I know it’s still pumping and flowing with blood
But it’s really not working,just as it should.
The stupid, the crazy the pushing around
Get it excited as it starts to pound.
It sounds like a drumroll being bashed with a stick,
I hope it stops, and I hope it’s real quick.
The power you have contorts my mind,
Making fantasies of death,seem so very kind.
Battered and bruised you done your best,
To control the girl, you loved more than the rest.
If this is love, then hatred I’ll take
Co’s the smile on my face, is really all fake.
I haven’t the strength, it’s nearly all gone
to pull me out, so I just carry on.
The pit of my stomach is swirling with rage,
An endangered species locked in a cage.
How can you love me, and treat me so?
How can I stay, not let you go?
Love is the word that binds us together,
Please dear lord, please not forever.
Sometime, I know, I have to get out.
Enough is enough is what I will shout.
Love, you can keep it, I’ll take my chances
I’ll learn to smile without the pretences
And Carry on and begin again, but not with you my bullying friend.
You’ll never find me, to hurt me again,
This love for you will continue to wain.
I will be strong, as strong as an ox
while you will hunt like the savage fox.
Your ugly inside is a cruel disguise,
Of the facade of the man on the outside!
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